Update

Filmed hardcore on Saturday and Sunday. Filmed hardcore yesterday. Gonna film hardcore again on Saturday.

I have two different themes working right now and I plan to fuse them together.
1) return to fantastical childhood where dreaming in waking isn't crazy, weird, and is entirely possible. looking for that door to take you somewhere else. death without actually having to do the act. just leaving to someplace else. living in innocence and beauty internally. never having to lose that every lifetime.

2)my concert piano past. the torture. being killed by music. being consumed by the fire. launch into madness. instead of conquering it the alternate reality is losing to it and being consumed completely. death by music.

fusion: the tragedy of that loss of magic, in passion and music the death and remembrance of innocence and ease, a haunting.

we'll see what it ends up as when i make it. things might change.

yup.